I have been suffering from depression, post traumatic disorder, anxiety, insomnia,etc. Well, now I am diagnosed possibly as Borderline Personality/Avoidant personality disorders.  I am just a mess these days, and apparently my whole life.  I see a psychiatrist next week and hopefully he/she doesn't decide to commit me to inpatient therapy.  I am a self mutilator and this concerns my doctor.  No matter what I do, my life always seems like it is falling apart.  I don't understand why I do the things I do, so how is anyone else going to be able to give me insight into my behavior?  I am one step away from a psychotic episode, as I was told by my doctor in not so many words.  I dug deeper into my family history and I find out that on my mother's side there are many women that have had mental breakdowns and such.  My grandmother, mother, and numerous others further back in the line.  Nice to find out now, when it is too late.  I have 2 children that could have the disease now.  My son is exactly like me.....He is afraid of everything and is always extremely anxious.  How do I cope with my own problems while trying to keep my son and the rest of my family from falling apart?  Need advice for coping with STRESS/LIFE.

These days I can't even decide whether or not I am sane or insane.  I would have to say Thatin everyone thee is a bit of unsteadiness that can bring us down and make us feel like we are losing our minds.  In order to know how sane feels, one must experience insanity first.