Bad News-mental health

I will not ignore a cry for help, but I am not qualified to help you as others maybe. I can suggest someone who may be able to help you get through this angst. Please know you are dearly loved and that someone is listening. Let me know if you would like to speak to someone who is a counselor.

Blessings

Aley

Dear Lynn,

You are not alone even when it feels like you are.  Depression and anxiety cause us to feel like we are alone. This is how our minds and emotions keep us caught up in this state that is so painful.  

You have asked for help.   This is a time others you trust are able to help even when it seems like they can't because you don't know what to do.  The key is getting this help from people who are skilled with experience helping many people who are suffering just like you.  These people can see your circumstances and condition and recommend a plan with assistance to help you create a more stable environment by balancing your moods, emotions and environment.  A specific plan would be difficult for you to create now because you are not feeling well.

It sounds like your son needs to see a trained and licensed professional too so there can be a plan to help him cope.  He will also gain some peace when you are able to have help for yourself.

Someone you trust in your life right now may be able to assist you in figuring out what to do right now.  If you do not have anyone to assist you “right now” until you see the psychiatrst, you can contact a mental health crisis line and even your regular family doctor can assist. 

We care about you and want you to be well. We want your family to be well.
We want you and your children to feel peaceful and loved.

I wish you all the best Lynn and I hope you and your children feel peace by the time you read this comment.

Take Care,
LeAnn

Dear Lynn, I can't say I know how it feels to be in your situation, but I can only try to imagine how very difficult it is to go through what you are going through, to feel like you are “a mess”. (You aren't, of course! You are just going through a tremendous trial.)

You are to be congratulated on taking the courageous steps to get the help of psychiatrists though you know there is a possibility you could be going to inpatient therapy.

It must be frustrating to learn about the family history at this late stage but remember the resources you have at your disposal that they didn't have and take heart. Your looking your own problems straight in the eye is the best example your son can have if he is struggling with the same issue. Your priority right now must be the resolution of your own issues, for his sake, for everyone's sake.

Remember to breathe, as deeply as you can, and just tune into what your heart needs, what your mind needs. The stress comes from trying to deal with everything and everyone's needs as we always feel expected to, as mothers. Right now, you can't, you have to take the time to become well. Reach out to anyone around you who can be there for you. Don't be afraid to lean heavily on others, sometimes we can't be strong and it's ok.

I can definitely relate to your story.  I suffered for a long time and it took quite awhile for me to fully realize that ” I ” made myself suffer. Regardless of what had happened during my life. I learned that suffering is always created BY us.

I was also given some of those labels and the more I gave my power away to them the stronger the “illnesses” became. I began to identify myself by the mental illness. I speak from experience I know all about allowing yourself to go down a self destructive path.

The energies on this planet have changed so much since I went down that path. There was no Gaia community. I didn't know anything about Eckhart Tolle infact he hadn't even written The Power of Now or A New Earth.  There was lots of information out there,but it wasn't meant to be a part of my experience because I didn't know much about positive thinking or even that we create our reality.

If you've never heard of Byron Katie I would like to encourage you to watch some of her videos on her website( Work in Action).  She does a wonderful job of helping others realize that their suffering is brought on by the “stories” they have created.

The only reason your family has a history of mental illnesses is because they all agreed to continue telling the same story.

You can choose to change the story or remain deeply rooted in it.

Remember you're not alone many of us have been through the same stories and it's up to each of us to learn from it, move through it, and release it with LOVE.

~Lisha

one thing that has helped me is chanting buddhist mantras. amitabha is one you can look up. another is om mani padme hung. they seemed to help stabilize a lot for me. i relate to a lot of the ptsd, etc… that you talk about. it is a journey to sort out. there is a book 'clear your clutter with feng shui' or some similar title. it is by karen kingston. years ago i was really in a dark place and began clearing out old yearbooks and old photo albums full of memories that i felt a need to let go of. people, experiences, situations, that held a lot of pain for me. it was part of me letting go of who i was and what i had been through. something like that may be of use to you as well. i had a lot of objects also that held unpleasant memories for me and it was liberating to realize i could let go of them and i didn't have to have them around me. i began studying objects i felt nourished by and situations that felt nourishing to me. i studied what triggered my darker periods. i saw various therapists and spiritual healers and while i still have dark moments i tend to overall be far happier and feel more 'whole.'

i listen to krishna das on youtube a fair amount and that nourishes my heart. i just play it over and over when i feel like i need some soul food. sounds like you have a lot of inner work to do. you are far from alone. it takes time and it is not without a lot of dark, but often as one goes through it they heal and feel more whole. good for you for seeking options.