I hate always being so negative all the time, but life has gone from hard to really tough in kust a matter of weeks.  Normally I would feel so anxious and depressd, but instead I feel empowered.  For once in my life I have decided to tak control of my own life and now I need to work even harder to come out of the dark place that I have let myself fallen into.  I feel off center and out of place at times, but my spirit just guides me on.  The mind wants to do it the old way and my spirit wants to do things the new way. I feel a change in me even as I type my thoughts down.  My meditations are so powerful as I just go into a trance almost and the pain and bad feelings I ave are just gone, but the soon return when I let my guard down. Is there a meditation to just let things go from the past?  Can I deep breath and just sigh away the bad things and to have them never return again?

My relationships with loved ones.  I have hurt them these past months by hurting myself.  I want to help others heal, but the healing must come from within first.

I obviously want to be thankful for the family, children, health life, Jesus dying on the cross for me, but I think I need to be thankful for all the little blessings that usually get overlooked.  A car that works, a job that I enjoy, a website full of friends....Gaia, time for meditation, heros to look up to and the list goes on.  Happy Thanksgiving.