The aha moment

I was sitting writing in my journal one night pondering the question that my husband put before me, "what are you running from?'  I didn't understand what he meant until I searched deep down in my soul and found an emptiness that was so hollow that it went all the way up to my heart and and swallowed my whole existence. I have been running all my life and without avail I can not find what I am looking for.  What was I running from?  I was not running from something but running towards something larger than me, larger than this world, and larger than anything I could ever imagine.  It was God I was seeking, but not on my own.  He was calling me but I didn't know where to look for him.  I realized in that instant that he is all around me and is always with me no matter what I do.  I have been able to experience the blessings more fully that the Lord has blessed me with and I now wait to hear what my purpose is in this life.  No more running, just listening and patiently waiting for my purpose to be revealed.